My Journey

  Took Leuch and BinMin to Holiday Movie Night at CSULA yesterday. A cozy activity for us students with dependents.  The girls had the best time and I got to see one of my favorite Christmas movies "How the Grinch Stole Christmas" with Jim Carey.  That Martha Mae Who is a whole vibe. We cuddled up under blankets, got to eat popcorn, chips, cotton candy and capri-suns. I enjoyed spending quality time with them. I even got them happy meals before the movie. The new Grinch Shaker dill pickled flavored fries are delicious.  

 

Today I took the time to self evaluate my feelings and take a temperature on the state of my mental health since last months stress. I have to say once I cried it out, realized that I would never get the apology or closure I wanted, I forgave and decided to move on with my life. I decided that I cannot expect everyone to treat me with the same kindness and respect I've shown others and I do not have to involve myself or engage with anyone who doesn't value me or treat me with respect.  I dont have to extend myself or go above and beyond for anyone that never asks me how I am doing, never asks about my mental health, who doesn't care when a medical emergency happens to me, and when n the rare days I speak about my day I am told "I dont want to hear about that." Everything I do and everything I endure I do so to make sure my children have a great life. They are my reason for drive and ambition. I have also come to realize that my healed version of myself is more cut...

    HAPPY DECEMBER 1st EVERYONE!!!   Hey y'all!!! I started putting my decorations up on Friday, the day after Thanksgiving. I love the Holiday season. Christmas is by far my favorite holiday, 2nd to my birthday, of course.