Today is a Better Day

 11.10.25

Today is turning out to be a better day. Well, at least better than the past few days. I ordered some more groceries, tucked some snacks away in my room, said a few prayers, and participated in some meditation sessions. I then decided to focus all my attention on my school work and my children. I visited my new school therapist. She's really nice. I have come to realize that certain aspects of my personality have hardened over time due to my life experiences. I aim to change that. Last Thursday took me out of the person that I am trying to become. I have made so much positive progress over the past three years that I do not want to throw it away because of a moment in time when I should have let it roll off my back. I aim to be softer, take accountability for my actions, and accept that I cannot change how others think, react, move, and so forth. I will continue to move forward in peace, with or without people in my life who are not moving along the same life path as me. All I can do is try to be a better person; I cannot change or force others to do the same.  I have children who depend on me for love and support. I have to be a positive and mature role model for them, especially in this climate. I mean, just look at the state the world is in. Consider the current state of the United States. People are being starved out.  Driven from their homes. Violence everywhere. Life is stressful enough. As much as I want to put it all behind me and move on, certain circumstances are preventing me from doing so, so I have to take on that responsibility myself and physically close that space, allowing me to move on in peace. 

Here are a few updates as far as school and life, and I will make it a little more colorful:

I decorated the outside of my house for the holiday season. Every year, starting October 1st, I put up fall harvest decorations with a little bit of Halloween sprinkled in for good measure, and then when Halloween is over, I go full-on fall harvest. Once it hits December 1st, I go all out for Christmas. This is my current Fall harvest decoration. 

I am a sucker for a good gnome and a nice-looking Fall leaf.

I think they look great.

Cal State LA is going well so far. I finally brought my Finance grade up to a respectable level. I got an 80% on Exam 2, which the teacher said that if the class got a better grade on Exam 2 than on Exam 1, he would replace the first grade with the higher one. Thank God, because I got a shameful 36% on Exam 1 and was praying that I could bring my grade up. Now all I have to do is keep the pace with completing my homework and extra credits, then pass Exam 3, and I'm in business.

That's pretty much everything for now. The kids are doing well, I finally got Amaya weaned, and I think we are on the road to being fully potty-trained. Ariah is excelling in her 2nd-grade classes and consistently earns incentives. I am very happy about that. My health is ok as far as I can tell, just a little fatigue. I am doing better with my stress management, which I am very proud of. I just need a little more patience with myself and give myself a little more grace.

I love myself, and I have to remember that I have come a long way.

P.S. Here is a pic of the girls from Halloween. I think they look sooooo cute. Costco for the win.